I'm not really sure what she thinks but I really treasure this bond that we used to share. I feel quite bad that I cannot really help her out now. Even if she needs help, all I can do is ask her if she's alright and you know that I'm not good with words that comfort people.

Sometimes I wonder to myself, if friendships are so painstakingly built up, why should they be allowed to wither? I don't know if what I'm doing is enough to keep this friendship going but I hoped that she could have done more. I don't blame her for not doing enough as I know that she's busy but I just wish for a little more. Maybe its because I can't find a confidante like you now and I really need someone to talk to. Maybe its because I've changed.