I didn't blog because I was really busy the past few months, which zoomed past, and that I couldn't really find a blogging style that suited me. but now that I started again, I wonder who's going to read it haha. But nevertheless, I'm just going to start blogging and keep to it haha

Anw, now that promos are over, there's a lot of time for me to really sit down and think about stuff. Khairiah and Drina would probably say I'm brooding about stuff, but really, I just need to rethink about my life. The past few years I have always planned out my life really well, like intending to go this school, take this course, take this job up and get married at 30 and be a yummy mummy and etc. But I looked around and saw people who didn't exactly planned out their lives and actually took a step at a time, and they are actually enjoying themselves. Some people told me stuff that really got me thinking. Here I was, trying hard to fulfill my goals and in the midst, I realised that maybe I'm not exactly suited to do what I wanted to do. I wanted those goals because I thought it would make me happy and of course have a comfortable life. Like getting into med school and becoming a doctor. Now that I ask myself, I don't even know why I wanted to be a doctor. I had a reason but is this the real reason or something that i convinced myself to believe? Moreover, I'm not even mentally strong enough to be a doctor, and I really do not think that I would have the passion to continue with it for at least 10 years. Would I neglect my family because of the time consuming job that comes with it?

I've been thinking for quite some time what I should do if I don't choose to study medicine but I couldn't come up with something that really interests me. I would just laugh at myself if I ever end up in the teaching profession haha.

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