Monday, March 16, 2009
its the school holidays so far and i have no CCAs or anything so far.
it feels really weird to be so free during the holis even though i have like 2 ccas
damnit i feel damn slack
sch holis last time was always filled with hmwk and band pracs
and now i'm like slacking away my time at home
i guess i had a too active life in sec sch so now that i'm not in any busy ccas, it feels really really weird.
i want to make my life more busy and filled with other stuff other than studying but there's nothing much i can do.
was it a wrong choice not to join band?
everyone around me seems to have a lot of things going on.
im afraid.
Y11:21 PM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
haha yes its been a long long time since i updated!
according to tracy i should update haha
but anw...
the past 2 months have been rather hectic and unsettling.
first was the results...den the choice of school...den the school that i got in...den whether i should appeal...den wad CCA to join etc..
there were just so many choices to make
at the end of the day, i'm glad that i made some correct choices
firstly, i'm happy that i didn't appeal into Rj coz i'm really happy in Vj..with new friends etc.
but maybe that's becoz i was never in Rj so i didn't really know how it would be like to be in there...it could be better den life in Vj now but i shan't think abt it coz wad's happened have already happened.
i really like Vj...i've always wanted to go there since like 2 years ago but until the results came out and Rj was put into consideration because i wanted to go the same school as mole. She wanted me to go Rj but there was simply too many insecurities i had in that school. Hence i put Rj as first choice but in the end i got into Vj instead. to tell the truth...i was quite shocked that i got in Vj but there was a tiny part of me that was happy that i got in. Maybe during the 2 weeks in between results release and sch posting results i had mentally prepared myself to go Rj that made me want to go Rj. But thinking back now...i dun really want to go Rj. afterall, i had mentally prepared myself for Vj for the past 2 years.
Secondly, was the choice of CCA. i guess there was this silent battle within myself whether i should join band again. many reasons i want to and many reasons i dun want to that i shan't disclose it here. BUT nevertheless i still love band a lot...and i really miss it a lot..whenever i see the Vjcsb ppl practising there would always be a sense of nostalgia.
i guess i had pinned all my hopes on getting into CT council that i didn't really make plans in the case that i didn't get in. i dun know why...probably i screwed the interview up but i guess that's not really up to me...so now...i'm joining my school's fencing and quitting my external fencing and trying to get into interact club. haha i'm like damn slack so i shall do more CIPs in the next 2 years haha
Anw...CSB's syf is on the 3rd april. haha reminds me of 2 years ago...a lot of great memories and it was definitely a great experience. i hope they treat it importantly and treasure the opportunity.
And, on the same day...i'm having my grade 8 piano exam. yes haha stress. i dunnoe whether i can even make it for their SYF in case i need to practice a lot.
on 3rd april, we're all going to be fighting a battle. for wad we really want.
u all want the gold and i want to at least get a merit.
we've practised hard the past 2 years and we definitely dun want our efforts to go wasted.
i know its difficult but i believe u all can do it. U've come a great way since 2 years ago and u all are carrying the hopes of all of us seniors. To have the chance to achieve wad we aren't able to.
But i don't expect u all to push yourselves to hard. I just want u all to put in your best effort and put your heart into it.
We're cedar band. We are not afraid to set our expectations high. Even if u all fail to achieve, don't be demoralized. Stand up strong and pass on the strength to the next batch so that they can make a comeback to our former glory.
Y8:39 PM
