Thursday, August 21, 2008
growing old scares me. really. not because of vanity but because of the diseases that come with me. esp after seeing my dad having this hemifacial spasm thing n having to undergo a brain operation to correct it. its not the operation that freaks me out but i've never seen my dad being so weak before and cannot even walk or talk properly though he's perfectly fine in the mind. well, he's the man of the house, the only man in fact, and the father that i've known is the strongest one, the one who solves everything and takes care of everything. but he's getting better by day, and that's all i ask for.
but anw, being young is good coz u can be irresponsible and do stoopid things that no one will ever blame u for and den laugh it off when u think abt it years later:)
anyway, i can't wait to go japan. i dun even mind the fact that the faster japan comes, the faster o's come haha. n once o's are over, den i can catch up with my lower sec and primary sch friends, ppl i haven't really talked to in ages:) i think its exciting to see how everyone's lives have became and we used to joke abt each other being our kids godma haha. being young reminds me that we do not need to think deep into things partly because we didn't learn lit and we could just eat hello pandas without worrying how much calories that would add to our bodies!
anw, a week before the start of prelims, i went with my mom to this down syndrome association charity gala dinner at some posh hotel. den there was this fashion show and all the models were like thin, tall and er gaunt. they were just like skin and bones but they were very tall...gosh, if only i had those legs! n i dun have to feel like a dwarf when standing next to sam and madeline at the same time. and hugging giants haha:))but i wore my mom's heels that day and i was taller like by 3 inches so it wasn't that bad haha
yea den i met eunice oslen there but she wasn't as pretty as i thought she would be. yes, makeup deceives ppl but it hides ur flaws so i still love it. haha
yes, one more chem mcq to go on monday. can't they put it tmr den i'll be free for the weekend to go shopping haha!:))
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