Wednesday, April 30, 2008
its so ironic.just after i write that den i received an email telling me to control my anger haha. n its the last line that's most impt.
How to hold your temper Make sure you read all the way down to the last sentence. (Most importantly the last sentence) There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back
of the fence. The first day the boy had
driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next
few weeks, as he learned to control his
anger, the number of nails hammered daily
gradually dwindled down. He discovered
it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails
were gone. The father took his son by the
hand and led him to the fence. He said, 'You
have done well, my son, but look at the
holes in the fence. The fence will never be
the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say 'I'm
sorry', the wound is still there. A verbal
wound is as bad as a physical one. Please forgive me if I have ever left a hole. Therefore,if someone tries to make you angry,control your temper and just walk away!It's that simple!:)
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Y6:21 PM
i tired.physically and mentally tired.
not because of studies but because of...
i really want to just throw it down and don't bother about it
but the thing is that, i can't.
i've suffered so many sleepless nights just worrying about it
n now its evading my mind even though i need to fill it with maths n bio.
maybe i'm taking the wrong approach in this.
anw, i was pissed with someone last week.
n she made me so pissed that i really wanted to strangle someone
again, she should just show some RESPECT to ppl around her
she anyhow jumped to conclusions n got angry at me coz she thought i went off even if it was my duty. the thing is, i didn't n even if i did, at least i had the basic courtesy to tell her which she didn't when she just sneaked off a few weeks ago without telling anyone, causing us to change our plans.
n den again, she totally likes to pick on certain ppl n make them look so bad. yea,like wad does she have against them? she just dun like their face issit? but she's equally bad anw.
maybe its not right of me to openly show my displeasure for her but she should just get out of my way. i'm way past the period of disappointment and starting to dislike her.
i've given up on hoping she would change coz i know i've given her too many chances and tolerated too much.
Y5:51 PM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
maybe staying back n school is more effective than going home
at least i didn't waste my whole afternoon away by sleeping:)
n finished my ying yong wen on the day it was given
haha i can imagine huang lao shi's face when she saw i handed in so early
but then with the canteen right in front of me, i couldn't resist myself from not eating
anyway, some random thoughts:
i wish i could try flying coz i always had myself rooted to the ground
i was afraid, timid and cowardly, never wanting to do anything that i deemed impossible
but nothing's impossible, i just have to try.
i want to be myself, and stop trying so hard to be like some people
coz i always try but fail, and end up look awkward in the middle of nowhere
maybe i just dun have it in me .
i want to persevere to the end, but can i?
my determination is as good as zero.
i keep talking to myself, but has it worked?
i can go much further, its whether or not i am satisfied with what i am.
spread your wings and fly, coz that's the greatest gift of being a child.
Y9:54 AM
Saturday, April 5, 2008
somehow i feel that the time with band was really short. we hardly even bonded with our sec 2 juniors n now its like time to leave .n wad makes it sadder is seeing how other sections are so close to their juniors. maybe its because i spent to much time doing admin work rather then with my section n now i'm really regretting it. now that i can relax a bit, i really want the time to really bond with trumpet section.maybe i shouldn't have thought that there's a lot of time coz there really isn't. maybe joining nbc is the perfect opportunity to bond as a section. i dun want band to end on this note.
there's this part of me who wants more.
Y8:47 PM
the last week had been busy coz of the 4 tests we had but there's a sense of satisfaction coz they're all over now:)
anw so tues was april's fools day so we decided to trick the teachers!
so during SEL, some ppl from CHAM switched classes and the Mr Ang didn't even realise until Mr G came over! but Mr A just continued teaching like nothing happened so it wasn't really funny but den during chemistry, we decided to all volunteer to answer den say i dun noe so when mr A asked, we all raised our hands and he got a shock! he said, "wah 4A y today so good" den he called someone den she said i dunnoe! den he called another person who also said i dunnoe! it was so funny but in the end we answered of course. den during english we decided to let jaanani conduct the lesson so when mdm A walked in, jaan pretended to wipe the board.so unsuspecting Mdm A said happily "good morning class" den we said "good morning Ms Jaanani"!!so jaan asked us to sit down n started teaching tamil! n mdm A just sat down at the teacher's table laughed until jaan got nothing else to teach! haha it was just so hilarious!
so yesterday was speech day. i'm having mixed feelings coz i dun want to take part in nbc coz of the exams but den if i dun take part, yesterday would be my last performance with the band. after having so much fun yesterday, i'm not sure if i really want to end band like this. coz i wasn't mentally prepared. but thinking that i will not have the chance to practise with the band, practise with trumpets, practise with Ms Sia, there's this sense of longing to experience all these again. i want to take part in nbc, but i'm afraid. is there anything that can pull me back from wad i really want?
Y7:56 PM
